Path

My mind has been preoccupied with the idea of life and the way it works. Life and death that is. Is there a god? It is said there is one and he is fair. I say he is not. Or his idea of fairness and ours make a 180 degree angle. Let’s examine a less complicated phenomenon than our termination or our beginning. Let’s try to understand the path in between, aging. This path can be long or short, smooth or full of bumps here and there. We have elders who we respect and adore and watch them walk on this path, age, in front of us. And of course they watch us grow behind them on this road between the beginning, birth, and end, death. We choose to follow their steps or take the shoulders some times. But we watch them and learn. The way they walk on this path is important as it will define the way we walk and the way the next generation will walk behind us. Experience is the name of the steps they take and experience is what is conveyed from them to us. The longer they walk on this path, the more we gain from them. Now, sometimes they get stopped in middle of the road too early. They get stopped or slow down before those behind them have gotten to the age to continue on this path by themselves. Let us talk about both scenarios. First, let’s talk about the scenario that they get “terminated” too early. There is a saying in Persian where we say “chera khooban zood mimirand?” or “why do good people die early?” why is that? Well, the answer depends on whether “He” exists. Let’s say He does.
He is supposed to be kind and all the other awesome adjectives we have given him. If so, why he takes away the “khooban” too early? Does he miss them? I thought he is selfless and dose not have any human characteristics that are signs of weakness. Missing a person is a sign of weakness they say. So let us say he does not miss them. He rather wants to test the rest of us. Or maybe he thinks that we, those walking behind, are not worthy of the one he takes away. Well, THAT is unfair I say. Maybe those walking in front of us are sometimes angles that were sent to the human world and their duty of guiding and servicing us, the followers is over and they have to return? Who knows?
Now let’s talk about the other scenario. Let’s talk about the scenario where the one in front of us slows down. Meaning they simply no longer are able to guide us through this path and rather sit on the side and watch us surpass. Again, the answer to the reason behind this unignorable fact is indeed dependent on whether the “almighty” exists. Last time we considered the scenario that he did exist. This time let’s take a look at the contrary.
Let’s talk about physics. Most Physicists that I know are atheists. I remember energy was a big topic in my physic classes so let’s consider energy as a contributing factor. As we know, energy is conserved. And as many believe, each person has a certain amount of energy stored within him or her. All those walking in front of us on this path between the beginning and end, have a certain amount of energy in them. So why do they slow down? Energy is conserved. Does this mean that they have given all their energy to those following and now they have very little left for themselves? Or does it mean that we, the ones behind, have taken too much energy away from them? Either way, they have slowed down and no longer have the power to walk on this path as a guide.
Let me diverge from this analysis. Let me talk about our role at this very moment of lack of energy for those in front of us. They need our help. The help of those they gave energy to. Their termination time has not yet arrived, but on this long path they gave too much energy to their surroundings. They were selfless. They gave it all away not wanting to save anything for themselves. They were selfless. Now it’s our turn to use the energy they gave us to push them forward. But since we now need to learn this path by ourselves, it is going to be a rough road. We should embrace ourselves for it. We are obligated to do so for the responsibility of giving a smooth ride to the “energy giver” is on our shoulders. We have to conserve the energy.
Learning the path by ourselves, right when it is about to get rough and bumpy, is a hard task many of us have to and will experience. They only thing we can hope for is that the ones in front of us who now depend on us, have some energy left in them to pull us up every now and then when we hit the bottom point of the road. Otherwise we will be left alone and nose in the mud in middle of this long path of life without knowing the reason for our existence.
I think my divergence led me to the end of this outpour of words. I think, either way, with His existence or lack of existence, the early termination or slowing down of the ones in front of us on this path of life is an unfair happening that we somehow have to comprehend and accept.